My life prior to knowing the Lord was a big MESS!!!! I grew up feeling abandoned, rejected and not good enough. I was raised by a wonderful aunt and uncle but always had the feeling that my birth mother did not love me at all, so she gave me away and kept my sisters. So I grew up with that feeling deep in my soul. I went through alot of unsatisfying relationships, from friends and marriages. Always looking for that one thing that would fill my heart with the one thing I felt was missing….LOVE and ACCEPTANCE.
At the age of 35 and many struggles of divorce and making many mistakes, I found Jesus. Did that make everything right? No, but now I found someone who loved me for who I am and would never leave me or forsake me. Entering into another marriage is what lead me to my Savior. I found out nothing in this world could give me what He could…Worthiness.
I have 2 children and my oldest daughter Nikki, was killed in a car accident one week before her 35th birthday. This was and still is the darkest time of my life. I don’t know what I would have done if I did not know The LORD at this time. He wrapped his loving arms around me and held me close. Her death started a series of events in my family that are still going on to this day, grandchildren struggling, my youngest daughter Amy, dealing with life’s issues and myself looking for ways to forget and forgive the past, live in the present and not walk in fear of the future.
So as I write this to tell you what God is doing today in my life, I can say He is walking with me and talking with me. He lifts me up when I am down and He holds my hand when I feel loss but more than anything He restores my soul daily. Life without Jesus is empty, lonely and hopeless. Life with Him is full of Hope.
