Eric  R.

Eric R.

from KS
Story #228
For as long as I can remember I lived a self-centered, self-seeking life. I had a "me first" mentality. Living that self-centered life still left me feeling empty and hopeless. On the outside I may have seemed happy but on the inside I was far from it. I got into some very destructive activities to try and fill that empty void. My life revolved around girls, drinking, experimenting with drugs, and getting into fights. Yet those things that I did to fill that void still left me feeling empty. On top of the empty feeling, the stresses of life began to weigh on me causing pretty severe anxiety/panic attacks. I thought this was life, I thought this was how everyone felt.

I didn’t know much about God growing up. Throughout my teen years I would occasionally (maybe 5 times a year) attend church. My life didn’t change and I still lived in sin without repentance. One thing stood out to me and that was feeling this wonderful sense of peace at church. I loved it! There were many times were I felt convicted, on the verge of tears. I knew there was more to this life and at that time I knew I needed God yet satan continually deceived me and I’d fall back into my typical sins.

From the age 20 to 24 I had taken most of my past destructive behaviors out of my life. Things were going good. I had a nice job, great friends/family, two beautiful children, but something was still missing. Not to mention I continued to deal with severe anxiety/panic attacks that stemmed from the fear of death. When I turned 25 I hit a pretty rough patch in life. I didn't know where to go next, I felt lost and hopeless. At that moment I felt drawn to church, so I began going frequently.

One Sunday during service I felt guided to take a stand and profess my faith in Christ. Despite feeling that I disobeyed God’s guidance due to my pride. That next week I felt the disobedience weighing on my heart. I prayed about it and knew I not only needed Christ’s strength and love to combat my sinful nature, I also needed to be a biblical leader for my children. That next Sunday on father’s day I ended up giving my life to Christ professing my faith in Him as my Lord and Savior!

I now have a new purpose in life, a new sense of joy for loving others and wanting to serve the less fortunate. I’m no longer living for myself, but living to glorify God in all ways possible. Psalms 55:22 says “cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall” Putting my life in Christ’s hand and knowing He is always there has made life’s struggles bearable and given me a new comfort I’ve never experienced before. I no longer search to fill that empty void with secular things yet now fill my life with Gods undying love. My hopelessness and emptiness is gone. God has given me a new heart and cleansed me of my past sins. Romans 8:1-2 says “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death” Knowing that my God has set me free from sin and death brings me joy, comfort and peace. I pray many of you can also feel this comfort and peace. Through Gods wonderful love and grace you can be set free from sin and death too!

If you understand that you’re a sinner in need of salvation through Jesus Christ and you’re ready to give your life to Him I encourage you to click below to learn more about Jesus, say this prayer then get connected with your local church.

“I know I’m a sinner, and I ask for your forgiveness. I believe you died for my sins and rose from the dead. I trust and follow you as my Lord and Savior. Guide my life and help me fulfill your will. In your name I pray. AMEN! “

Remember salvation does not come from this prayer. Our salvation is a gift from God. We are saved by grace through faith alone. It is faith in Jesus death and resurrection that saves us.