I was raised in a Christian home, my parents were just as active in the church as the Preacher. When I was 10 I wanted to be saved but I didn’t want to be baptized alone and I prayed for a month that my best friend would accept Jesus as Lord with me, and to my surprise my brother wanted to be saved with me! I was filled with joy! My life was great, but I when to Central Christian College of the Bible and fell in love with a guy I met there got married graduated with a counseling degrees my life went crazy. The man I married turned out to be the text book definition of a sociopath! He was a smooth talker but it was all lies and emotional abuse and began cheating on me after 6 months of being husband and wife! I stayed with him despite all of it. I didn’t want to give up on my marriage. A few years later I got pregnant and I didn’t really feel like having a baby but God had a good reason to! Whan Abby was born I ended up having an emergency C-section because her heart beat was dropping. Abby was underwight and her umbilical cord was only a few inches long. I doubt she would have survived a regular birth. Two days old Abby started having seizures and would turn blue and the doctors put her in the NICU and ran ever test possible. Day 3 doctors tell me Abby had a stroke while I was pregnant, which caused a brain bled which triggered her seizures. They also said she had a brain disease and not to expect her to ever walk or talk! After a month I got to bring her home! It was the week of Thanksgiving! I was so happy to get her home! I was so depressed during my pregnancy, she made me smile again, despite what her future would be! But I got depressed again and became suicidal I had a plan and right before I took my life I cried out to God and an invisible but tangible wave of peace washed over me 3 times and my mind was a peace and my heart was calm and my only thought was I’m going to be ok! The next morning my Grandpa died he was a Christian and my mom was so devastated and I thanked God for saving me the precious night! I knew my life had to change but I didn’t know how! Praise God he is so good and faithful Abby started walking at 10 and half months old and started taking sentences before the age of 2! And when my last living grandparent died 6months later and my husband was still cheating on my I talked with my cousin and realized I don’t love him and she offered for me to live with her! And after a month I moved back with him to work things out but he never repented from lying and stealing and cheating so I moved in with my parents and got a divorce about a year later and learned to put God first in my life because I had put my husband there because he was a preacher I made him responsible for my spiritual health. I thought I needed a man to make me happy but God has shown me I need him for joy and peace! Now 5 years later Abby is in kindergarten and just learned how to read and shows no signs of health issues and I’ve never been happier! I still want to have a husband and God spoke to my heart and told me my next husband is coming soon! I never wanted to be a single mom but my life has never been better because I walk with God on a daily basis I talk to him as if He is right beside me! I pray every day that I surrender my will to Gods!
