Let me introduce myself, my name is Jeff. I was saved by the grace of God in the blood of Jesus Christ on October of 2018. I hung myself in my garage, ready to die, and go to hell. I was strung out on meth, struggled with alcoholism, and drug addiction.
For 20 plus years, at the end of October, I ended up in a nuthouse and they put me on medications for bipolar. I was taking medication for my blood pressure, cholesterol, thyroid, and all kinds of things. If you’ve never been mad at God, you’re more holy than I am because I lost everything. I lost my wife of 12 years, my kids that I saw everyday all of their lives. Separated, lost every possession I had except for some clothes, my truck and a few pictures.
November 20th or 21st of 2018, I told God I couldn’t live like I was living anymore. I was on a lake bank fishing and I told God if everything was going to be okay let me catch a fish. I fished for 2 1/2 hours and never caught a thing. I was listening to Jason Crabb’s dad tell his testimony and sing a song on a bluetooth headset that I had. Halfway through the song I got mad. I went to my truck and threw my headset in my truck. I drive a Dodge Durango and I went to lift the back gate on my truck to put my fishing pole up. I couldn’t lift the gate past my waist and I heard the sweetest voice I ever heard in my life at 35 years old. I heard the voice of God speak to me and say throw it one more time feller. It made me madder and I said to myself, “I ain’t doing it.” I tried to pick the gate up higher and it got about stomach height when I heard that voice again a little bit louder. It said, “throw it one more time feller.” So, now I’m mad, I step to the edge of the lake, I threw that fishing lure as far as I could throw it and on the fourth crank the line got heavy, the hand of God I’m telling you. There was a fish, the first cast on my pole. It wasn’t the biggest fish I ever caught, but it is the best fish. This began my journey with the Lord.
He Supernaturally delivered me from 20 plus years of alcoholism and drug addiction. He took me back to when I was six years old and he asked me, “are you really ready son?” I said, “of course I am.” He said, “let me have that molestation.” When I was six years old, I was molested by a brother and a sister and the devil used that to make me feel worthless. It started me down a path of drugs and alcohol that tried to kill me several times throughout my life. But see, when you go through things, God is building you to be a warrior if you turn away and come to know Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and savior. He’s put a fire in me since. Nobody can tell me God’s not real and I’m still learning, but I asked the Lord to lead and guide me. I’m nothing special, do you hear what I’m telling you? I’m just a man who believes in God and glorify his name daily through his son Jesus Christ who came down in human form, died on the cross for our sins, and on the third day he rose again.
I thank God for everything. I’m nothing without the Holy Spirit living in me and guiding me. Without Jesus Christ Our Lord and Savior and God almighty. It’s what I feel in my spirit so please don’t take nothing I say out of context or get aggravated. If you do you do, I just write what’s in my spirit and I hope that this touches somebody for the glory of God, but they’ll see there’s nothing that they’ve gone through that will not be forgiven. Jesus Christ forgives all and He loves all. The only sin that is unforgivable is the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I hope this touches somebody and they come to know Jesus today. Don’t look at me, I’m nothing, look at the One in me, our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Without Him, none of us are anything, but through Him anything is possible.
I don’t believe in a religion. Religion will kill you, it makes people fight and argue. I’m a Believer in the Holy Trinity, God the Father, Jesus the son, and the Holy Spirit. I don’t knock anybody for being religious. I don’t knock people who don’t have what I have or believe like I believe. We all have that right, but God wants a personal relationship with us. Jesus Christ was sent to this earth to be a role model for us. That’s a little bit of my story. God bless you all. I love you all, but Jesus loves you more. He can do anything if you believe when you pray and in your heart, you don’t doubt, things will come to pass.